Sunday, December 09, 2012

In a Funk.

As you can tell from the enormous amount of posts between this and the last...I've just had a ton to say. Sadly, I think I have. I just haven't wanted to share it. Or didn't know how. Or lost the time.

This season has been rough. long. done with.

I don't want to be here anymore. I'm trying to climb out, but some days are harder than others.

Also, have I mentioned that in 6 days I'll have an official 2.5 year old? I think 2.5yo's are here to confuse and  drive you mad. It is a constant battery of questions, melt-downs, tantrums, hurtful words, and slugs to the body (most in fun) coupled with the most wonderful sounds of singing, laughter, and I love you mom moments that leaves me quite at my wit's end. How can one soul bring so much stress and jubilation? What God must put up with us all.

We recently took a trip to the mountains. It was brown for the most part, then on our last night, it snowed. Wonderful blanketing snow. I was in love.

I woke up the next morning, snapped a few pictures, started a fire, got my book....then EVERYONE woke up, and the same-day-day started all over again.

I want more moments. I want more peace. I want to enjoy the things around me. So that's what I'll continue on. That's what I pray for.
In the meantime I've got my windows rolled down, blasting Christmas music in search of those moments.

Happy Christmas.

2 comments:

Emily said...

Oh friend, I can so relate. I feel that this season of life can be such a battle to stay on top of taking in the moments and not drowning with the day to day parenting. I am praying that you are able to find a place of peace and that you will stay there indefinitely.

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